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Tuesday, April 5

EVER SINCE


Ever since
Since
The low tide
Came up too high
And my hope was lost in theirs
Though loads survived
   from that well.
 
Ever since
Since
 I was told
   there was no way back to hold
   the hope of giving birth again

Ever since
When
 watching a toy
bringing memories of mess and joy 
   I could not avoid.

Ever since
Since
 You told me your last love words
And I was left at awe...

Yet, I feel
I feel yet I feel
Nothing much prevents me
From...
   getting odd.

  Image 'Untitled' by Vanessa Ho

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Posted for OSW

28 comments:

dustus said...

A beautiful strain of melancholy shines through the repetition and sentiment of loss—for aspects of life, as well as the lament of time's passage.

Laura said...

Oh dear one, the repetition and rhythm of this poem draw me deep into your words, your ocean of feelings...and into my own as well. Beautiful!

Marshy said...

dustus is right using the word melancholy...a very sad reflective piece...loved this

Anthony Duce said...

Ever Since, holds so well a story of memories, of lives I find myself imagining, if not relating too. Like this a lot.

moondustwriter said...

A nice reflective piece my dear - pulls the reader to a point of his or her own ever since...

always excellence in your words

love from the Moon

Anonymous said...

Could really relate to this poem, the last line struck me as odd though should the last word be odd or old? Really felt your melancholic words Dulce, thanks for sharing

signed...bkm said...

I love this not so much from the ever since...but from the last stanza...now all of melancholy leads us to a place called "odd" in the eyes of those around us....that is the brillance of this piece...very nice..bkm

Brian Miller said...

smiles. beautiful write dulce...the loss resonates on a couple levels...lost love...lost ability to have kids...it dont make you odd though, just normal..

Monkey Man said...

This seems to capture the end of aging as I read it. Love how you leave this to the interpretation of each individual.

The Poet said...

Sweet melancholy. Beautifully done.

steven said...

melancholia and love dance the sweetest dances. steven

Dragonblogger said...

I agree with repressedsoul that I thought the final word would have been old instead of odd, it seemed about the ravages of time.

Sheila said...

I like the repetitions, I heard them being read with sad sighing pauses in between. very good...

Unknown said...

Love the recursive verse. Beautiful!

KB said...

I feel the sadness in your words. Beautiful.

steveroni said...

Ever since I've been reading you, Dulce...I realize how writing is a growth process. Since I am discussing this right now on YOUR blog, it appears that you keep getting better and better (with age--grin!) like fine wine...since practice makes preftekt.

And isn't life itself a bit odd? Or is that 'old'! Love and PEACE to you!

JStar said...

This hits hard...Memories should never be let go of...They bring us sadness...but we should also focus on the happy memories....This made me want to cry...

Bubba said...

Odd? Surely you meant old. I guess you couldn't see the keyboard through the tears.

Leslie said...

you write of loss, yet somehow i sense a thread of hope, still...

Jannie Funster said...

Hi Dulce, my heart goes out to the writer of this.

I'm odd too. May we stay this way, eh? :)

And guess what?? It is time for me to make one of my cute little sidebar "Friend" link buttons and post it for YOU and you alone. Look for it in the next 1 to 3 days!

Peace and love to you.

xo

Anonymous said...

This verse of yours is like a trip wire to a landmine. So fine, so delicate, so simple- yet packing the solid punch of profound loss.

I feel it. The empty, hollow, vacant feeling does leave one feeling... odd. As in, odd one out. Kind of like folding little onesies for someone else's brand new baby... and remembering.

I guess I'm odd, too, then.

Spark said...

nice poem

Dulçe ♥ said...

ah that OLD word 'odd'... so little so big the difference... just for the sake of a poet's choice...

Thanks my friends for your so sweeet comments, and please forgive me when I cannot get to you.
Exhaution and 'oddness' overcome me!
:-)

Hugs

Dulce

Nikki (Sarah) said...

it feels like music in my soul.

Anonymous said...

You definitely have a way with words.

I am in AWE, yet again!

Carrie Van Horn said...

I hear great loss in your words Dulce....and I can feel it as I read your beautiful poem.

Adam said...

This to me seems a reflection on life, but concentrating more on the negative and even sad memories.
I'm sure that we all dwell on the past at times in our lives.
I really enjoyed this poem, thank you :)

RNSANE said...

This felt so sad to me. Plaintive yet beautiful laments.