APPROACHING

Every day you are in my head,

today you’ll be all day

You’ve been talking to me all morning.

And I’ve been listening.

You’ve told me no more no less

what I need to hear

and also things I did not expect,

they were in my head,

you talked them out.

I asked you from now on

what will I call this day?

Happy birthday or birthday anniversary?

Same day as Whitman,

and they say, anniversary.

I’ve been meandering all day,

but you’ve been meandering with me-

I like your company, I miss your presence,

yet you are so present

as any day you’d come by.

And you tell me to look at myself in the mirror

and see behind- much deeper,

beyond my tears,

and find you in myself,

and you tell me to stop being ungrateful

and enjoy all I have which is a lot

and you ask me to stop complaining

for what is not,

and try to accept that this is life,

that it has never been easy and it will not.

And you tell me to grasp the moment,

love myself my body and mind

my imperfect body and mind,

and go deeper into my soul

and revise the lessons

life has taught me all these years,

and that there is no way back but a present,

a now as this lucky moment

that I still can see dad.

And at him smile,

and how lucky we are to feel and see

and hug and hold him,

and flesh and soul…

what difference does it make?

And you tell me to come to me again

and sleep my dream

And dance where I stand,

for there is nothing else

and we can not fight against the storm

but look for shelter and warmth

I tell you hey thank you

and you say it’s alright if I cry

for you understand I’ll never understand

until I approach closer to where you are.

___________________________________________________Image Aproaching Woman On canvas- by Phlog That.